I am so thankful for the life I lead. Sometimes I forget that. Sometimes I focus on ruffled feathers and unfulfilled expectations and the busy, busy. busy way I feel like I must operate during the holidays.
I'm sad that this time of year often turns into emotional politics and obligations for me. Try as I might to focus on the Savior born so many years ago, instead I focus on whether my house is clean and what other people think of me. And to me, that's idolatry.
When I can stand still in the midst of the crazy fog and find a few moments of gratitude, that is a true gift. I am so thankful that my God knows the depths of my flaws and pulls me to Him in those times.
And so I am grateful....
--For a Savior who loves me.
--For a baby who is amazing,
--For a husband who is a wonderful father and spouse. I am grateful that Ian has a daddy at all, and for him to have such a loving, involved father is a blessing.
--For family that support me. When I think of friends who are still paying off student loans, I am reminded to be extra grateful for the college education I received courtesy of my parents. I think I took that for granted when I was in school....I had no idea how many people have to work their way through college! (I know, I live in a soft, fluffy world, don't I?)
--For a house that is safe and warm.
--For a country where I can worship and live as I please. (I totally take freedom of speech for granted as well.)
--For a kitty and a puppy who are snuggly and fun.
--For friends
--For teh interwebs
--For my powerlessness
--For the reality of my imperfection
--For modern medicine
--For almost limitless choices in food
--For my stylin' wardrobe, courtesy of Jessica
I don't know that I have a resolution for this upcoming year, but I do have a hope. I hope for more serenity in my life. I hope that I can lay down the cares of this world for a small time every day so that I can listen to God's Will for my life and seek the power to carry it out.
